Another silent day

well I am gonna try writing in English, just to try it out. Maybe english could bring something different into my writings, its definitly a beautiful langauge.
Today has been quite boring, actually it has been awhile since I experienced not being busy all the time, it takes some time getting used to without getting totally mad. Stress is like a drug, at least for me it has been.
But i am moving towards having another lifestyle, and it is at the same time quite a scaring and good thing for me.
Scaring because it is new, and I have to start grow up, and take care of me self. I am going to make a lot of mistankes and I guess thats scaring to, because there will nobody but myself to deal with them. I know my mom and my sister always will want to help me, but in the end there will only be me to solve the problems.
And Good because I will get my own place and start a new life.

So I have also being thinking.. Yeah I know i shouldnt do that. Its my future i have been thinking about.
I know I love cooking. But have I really spent the last 3 years in school to become a cook? That is the question, and it is actually a good one.
I could also study English and communication that would also be a good job for me. But would it be something I love? I love cooking, I love making healthy food. But who dosent? Well I guess only the time can tell what I will become.